Photographer Esteban explains his shoot ‘The Death Roll’ to Hunger TV, and tells us why melancholia and depression motivate his work.
SO ESTEBAN, HOW DID YOU COME UP WITH THE IDEA?
I wanted to narrate the story of a fallen depressive man overwhelmed by his feelings. We are the observer capturing his expressions as we would sit in a theater watching a play. He is a person who is dominated by his depression which destroys him. I always tried to capture the strongest point in his emotions. In the end I hope one can follow the story and one can sympathize with him at a specific point.
WHAT INSPIRES YOUR WORK?
I am a melancholic person and that defines my aesthetic very much. I am inspired by broken and fallen characters or the shady sides of life in general. So that can be real persons but also photographs, films, poems or a song about a character, a thing or experience. I try to express what people feel but try to hide because they dont want to admit their dark, sad or melancholic side or past. In combination with fashion I love to tell ones melancholic story through photographs or film.
HOW DID YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH PHOTOGRAPHY?
I always wanted to be an artist when I discovered the possibilty of expressing emotion through my work. I never had it in mind to become a photographer, but when I was 18 and my dad bought himself a new camera I was curious and wanted to test myself in photography and suddenly I found a passion in capturing emotions which hasn’t ended yet. I love it so much because through photography it allows the chance of individual fulfilment together with the chance of sharing emotions with a viewer. To confrontate him with his own secret emotions, to make him angry, sad or happy or to give him the chance to see the world from another perspective. That is what makes photography so special to me. The emotions not the technique.
I HEAR YOU MET RANKIN IN GERMANY, HOW DID THAT COME ABOUT?
That’s really a long story, but to make it short I can tell you that I went to his massive exhibition in Düsseldorf to see him and his work at the vernissage. Against my expectations I met a friend who introduced the stylist Scott Robert Clark to me. We had an interesting chat together and Scott wanted to introduce me to Rankin afterwards. I have to admit that I was a bit nervous to see such a legendary person and to be able to talk to him. In the end we had a wonderful evening with the whole team which I will never forget.
WHERE DO YOU WANT YOUR CAREER TO GO IN THE FUTURE?
I had the honour of directing my first big commercial for Braun in the last year which was just incredible. So I would love to continue that and possibly be known as a director as well as photographer. I think it can work really well together and I never want to give up any of these ambitions.