Sort of. I’ve had a really great realization on this record. Before, I always wrote for a specific record and I always wrote very personal stuff, anything that was in the back of my head would come out. But I also held things back, because I was in a relationship. I wrote Tremors which is about a break up (“My love don’t love me”) when I was still in a relationship! So how could I take that home to my partner? Then Rennen happened and during it I was in relationship that became my marriage, so there was definitely a holding back element there too, because you’re with someone that’s gonna hear your music and you don’t want to hurt their feelings. But the human mind is fucking complex and relationships are really complex and all of those things, good or bad, are totally valid. During this phase of my writing life, I’m actually really happy. I’m as settled as I’ve ever been in my life. But if you hear “Hue/Nill” you’d think I was in a ton of trouble! The truth is that those feelings are still there; I 100% mean both of those songs but I have to be allowed to vocalize and even publicize that those feelings did happen. It doesn’t mean that those feelings are how I feel, but it does mean that they’re how I felt, at one point. I had a really amazing conversation with my wife and she said that anything that I want to put into words and release that’s about us, is absolutely fine. If anything, on the last record she felt that I had lied to my audience, that I only allowed certain parts of myself onto the record and held back other parts because you felt like that wasn’t something you wanted people to see. She said, “You have a responsibility. You’ve only got one chance at doing this, so don’t ever hold back again.”
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I’m here to be the best writer I can be, the best artist I can be, and the truest version of myself that I can be. This is my experimental phase from that point of view. And as a writer, if you can’t write about the most real thing you’ve ever experienced, how can you hold your head up high and say that you’re a writer?